Goodbye to a Fickle Friend

I’ve blamed you for my failures

My lack of progress and time

I’ve blamed you for my regrets

Even before I knew you

Denial is such a fickle friend

Used as a crutch to discredit one’s shortcomings

This is nothing more than a charade

A game I have played for a lifetime

A look inside bore the reflection of truth

It was me all along

My own worst enemy

Incessant procrastination has held me back

Over-thinking every minute detail has crippled me

Accomplishments lay out of reach to no one else’s fault

It was never you at blame for my failures

Nor my lack of progress or time

Regrets were never realized through you

I have deflected my imperfections long enough

The mirror has parlayed a harsh reality

Leaving me exposed to the frailty that has been the catalogue of my life

With eyes splayed wide, the path before me is clear

Freeing me to pursue all that I’ve spent a lifetime avoiding out of fear

For this I am forever grateful to you

In spite of me

~~ D. R. DiFrancesco ~~

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5 responses to “Goodbye to a Fickle Friend”

  1. Shackled and Crowned Avatar

    Tell me more about your fickle friend.

    1. blackandwrite Avatar

      Well, I can tell you one thing about him, he has been an unwelcome guest in my house on and off all of my life. My hope is that I am finally rid of him, but only time will tell. :)

      1. Shackled and Crowned Avatar

        Ugh…unwanted house guests. I had one of those for five years.

  2. Rilla Z Avatar

    I really relate to “Over-thinking every minute detail has crippled me.” It’s a bad habit and, yes, a time-stealer. I hope you are triumphant!

    1. blackandwrite Avatar

      Thank you for the support. This is something that I have struggled with most of my life and I’m hoping to break the habit. :)

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