By D. R. DiFrancesco
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I lie,
Head cradled in a pillow of down,
Soft and warm still I can not sleep.
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Thoughts race through my wild mind,
Exhausting me as I seek out slumber,
Knowing that it eludes me again.
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This inescapable race,
Taunts me, dangling a carrot in front of my unwilling mind,
Exploiting the weakness in me.
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To what end,
As dawn breaks ending another night of torment,
I am mentally weary as I slip from between the silken sheets.
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Awake in the physical only,
I lumber through the day a mere shell of who I am,
Begging for respite from myself.
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Seeking sanctuary in melatonin and sleeping pills,
Face down in a self-induced coma,
I struggle to release my mind from this torture.
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Relief is only temporary,
A solitary night of dreamless repose,
Refreshing just shy of expiration.
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Insomnia, my uninvited friend,
My companion through hours of darkness,
Like a relative come to visit and never leaves.
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Eviction seems so distant,
As opportunity for lethargy escapes,
Overwhelming me with inexorable nights of tumult.
Wow – almost painful how well you describe the sleepless state. I feel for you…
Thank you Melody. This is something that I’ve been dealing with for a few years now. I think that I can attribute it mostly to my inability to quiet my mind. It always seems to be racing.
If you find a way to shut the thinker off, you’ll be rich!! (Let me know first, will you?) :)
I certainly will let you know. :)